Most of you will know I have been a little poorly recently, I’ve turned up to lessons, competitions, the yard and even the demo looking a little peaky or with a tissue attached to my nose whilst looking somewhat unsteady, well most of you won’t know I’ve actually been very very poorly recently.
The last few months have been a real test of my grit and determination to keep my business and horses going not to mention just the ability to get out of bed!
BUT - This week I have felt more like my old self and have managed to be a bit more “productive” and feel a little calmer inside knowing things are getting back to normal and I’m in control again.
I’ve been so dragged down with my health that at times I’ve felt like the world is closing in on me – we have all been there right?
When I got home tonight I had the horrible feeling in my calves that told me I’d done a little bit too much with this new found energy and I got to thinking whilst soaking in the bath full of magnesium how grateful I am.
Gratitude is a funny thing, sometimes we say thank you and show it without even thinking and other times we need to be reminded to be grateful and thankful for what we have.
I was thinking about tomorrow, I am taking Mr Orange over to Lindsey’s to have a training session and I cannot wait. My lessons are my time to switch off and focus just on me and Mr Orange. I call my lessons my selfish time hehehe.
I’m not the trainer, not the judge, not the livery yard owner, not the house cleaner, not the fiancé, not the sister or daughter, just me the rider of my lovely Orange boy and its my time to have fun doing what I love - Learning.
I would not have Mr Orange if it wasn’t for Lucy my old groom, I was not loking for another horse but she found him whilst shopping for her own new steed and of course my parents who stumped up the £££$$$$£££££ so I could purchase him.
I feel so thankful for my health, my horses, my family and friends, even the “trolls” without all you I would not be the person I am today and I would not have got through this last few months without you.